Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Speak of the devil...and genetics news back

Speak of the devil, my period came - almost immediately after the last post went up. Day one, here we are.

Also, genetics on miscarriage #6 are back.

Normal male.

I don't even know what to think.

Mo

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37 comments:

Auntie Em said...

Wow. I don't know what to tell you. It will be interesting to see where CCRM wants to go from here. I am so sorry. I especially hate it that they gave you the gender, b/c I think that would make this news doubly hard for me. Hugs.

Nepsi said...

I am so sorry for your loss which is followed by lack of answers.

ks said...

I'm so sorry Mo. I was really hoping there would have been answers. ((hugs))

Dora said...

Oh, Mo! Big hug. I don't know what to think either. Just FUCKING SUCKS! :-(

Pie said...

Huh. I just don't know what to think. I'm sorry there are no clear answers, that is soooo frustrating. I'm sorry Mo.

sprogblogger said...

Oh, I'm sorry. That just bites. Sorry it's a legit 'normal' - I mean, it's good to KNOW - but it's hard to know, too.

Call if you want to talk. I'm thinking of you and wishing this were all just even a tiny bit easier.

Jay said...

Having no answers, after the hell you have gone through,is THE cruelest thing. This really, REALLY SUCKS.

I wish I was in New York already so I could brainstorm with you. I feel like we are all trapped in an episode of 'House' now and in this real life version there is no cranky genius to come up with the right answer :(

Secret Sloper said...

I'm so sorry. I don't know what to think either. I hope your various REs do, though.

Thinking of you.

Courtney said...

Thinking of you as you continue to process and grieve your loss.

Kami said...

I just want to punch something when I read your posts. I don't understand all of this, yet it makes me so freaking mad. I wish I had answers. I wish I could make it better for you guys. This just sucks!

Kami

Brenda said...

I don't even know what to say. I'm at a loss for words. Hugs to you and Will. Thinking of you both.

Anonymous said...

I have lost a few normals too. I am now on Heparin which is used for people with recurrent miscarriages. Not fun, but they couldn't figure out what was wrong with me either. I am now a little over nine weeks...

T

LisainSK said...

I like Kami want to punch something too...none of this makes any sense...nothing. Thinking of you...

TeeJay said...

Man, what the hell? This sucks so bad. I'm so sorry for you guys. Getting no answers is the pits. I'm really sorry, Mo.

lastchanceivf said...

So unbelievably unfair for you to find that out. I am just so sorry there are no clear answers, no matter which way you turn.

PS my word verification is "skydr" which makes me think of Skyridge Medical and of course CCRM and of course your doctor and so hoping he has some answers for you.

winter blue said...

Oh Mo, I'm so sorry. Hang in there.

Esperanza said...

Oh Mo. I don't even know what to say. I read that line and felt like I'd been punched in the gut. I can't imagine how it felt to you to hear it. I'm so sorry. I hope they have something productive to tell you for moving forward, not that it could ever heal the pain of your loss. I'm so sorry again. You are in my thoughts and in my heart.

It is what it is said...

It is hard to know what to wish for in these circumstances because we want a definitive answer but having done microarray to you want those results to hold up, too.

After all our failed attempts including the chemical pregnancies, miscarriages, ectopic) my RE simply said that even if the embryo is genetically C9(chromosomally) normal, sometimes the egg (in my case likely because of my age) does not know how to develop beyond a certain point. It lacks the energy or code to progress. While that thought isn't comforting, it did make sense to me at the time.

It will be interesting to hear what CCRM says.

Hoping a clear path lay ahead.

tireegal68 said...

Sending hugs. This sucks! So sorry! I know news like this is so frustrating. Xo

glamcookie said...

I'm so sorry. Thinking of you both.

gwinne said...

I'm so sorry the news doesn't give you a better sense of where to go next. I'm thinking of you.

Another Julia said...

You've been dealt some colossally unfair cards...I genuinely hope that your miracle is in your near future. I am so, so sorry that you're going through this. And knowing the gender...eesh. It's awful, plain and simple, and you don't deserve this agony.

Miss Ruby said...

It sucks when there are no answers, no good reason why it happened, sometimes I think it would be easier if there was a reason...

~x~

Kahla said...

I don't even know what to say. In a way I imagine it would be more of a relief to know something had been gentically wrong. Sending hugs and prayers from Texas.

Melissia said...

Mo and Will,
I am so sorry. While knowledge is good, it would be better to have answers. Thinking of you both while you grieve this additional news.

Michelle said...

Oh Mo. I don't even know what to say. Your heart must have sunk. I so know that feeling. Ironically, I get my results from loss #5 tomorrow. It's like you wish, wish, wish for a chromosome problem. I think in my heart, mine will be normal too. I'm so sorry for you. I know this pain and disappointment. I wish it were easier for you. I just hate it when our bodies do this. I'm sorry. Hugs to you.

Carrie1074 said...

I am so sorry! The news is bitter sweet I am sure. It is good to know that "normal" is possible, but it sucks that you are in this situation at all. It makes it even harder when you find out the gender. When I had my 3rd miscarriage it was hard enough, then to find out it was a "normal" female, it made it twice as hard. Hang in there the best you can! Thinking of you and Will.

The Reluctant Blogger said...

I am so sorry, I know that answers are good in some ways and bad in others. Lack of reasons makes this so hard. Hugs, I am thinking of you often.

ivfcycler said...

so sorry.
i think of all the things i've learned from reading bazillions of blog posts, the only thing that i CLEARLY benefited from was knowing to ask that they give me these results without the info on the fetus's sex.

Stacie said...

Oh, Mo. I wish I had the answers for you. Thinking of you both...

Conceptionally Challenged said...

Oh dear. I don't know what to say either. This sounds so hard. Thinking of you.

birds and squirrels said...

Oh Mo, I'm sorry. I wish there was some answer for why it happened. Sending many many hugs to you and Will while you grieve this loss.

Polly Gamwich said...

I'm so sorry for the loss of your son.

Big, huge, surrounding hugs ...
Polly

Twiggy said...

I'm sorry. There just seems to be no end to the utter sadness, does there? My heart bleeds for you two. I'm so sorry :(.

Emily Erin said...

I hope that CCRM has good ideas to know what's going on and that this time next year, this is a distant memory displaced by much joy.

Roccie said...

Ah Mo. I am sorry. You deserve answers. You deserve a baby at home with you. I am glad you are with ccrm to determine the next steps.

Me said...

That is certainly a case of an answer creating more questions. I'm sorry this is so tough.

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