Went to the RE, who didn't like what he saw and sent us on to a radiologist who specializes in OB at the hospital.
Just to confirm.
Both saw debris in the gestational sac. No yolk sac. Small subchorionic hemorrhage. No fetal pole, let alone heartbeat. Not sure what to think of Monday's reassurance ultrasound.
Both saw debris in the gestational sac. No yolk sac. Small subchorionic hemorrhage. No fetal pole, let alone heartbeat. Not sure what to think of Monday's reassurance ultrasound.
But it's clear now.
Pregnancy #6 is over.
They are adding me to the OR schedule for today.
Will and I can't believe it. We thought this one might be the one that made it.
Walking between the two doctors' office buildings, I thought, Maybe I haven't woken up yet. Maybe this is a bad dream.
But it's not. It's happening again.
Mo
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Update: Surgery rescheduled for tomorrow. I forgot completely that I'm on lovenox and aspirin. My RE wants to wait 24 hours for the lovenox to get out of my system and will fit me in tomorrow afternoon for the procedure.
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Will and Mo, I am so deeply sorry.
ReplyDeleteNnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnoooooooooooooooooooooo! I couldn't believe it when I saw your post title on my blogroll.
ReplyDeleteI am so incredibly sorry. I wish there was something more I could say or do. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.
Hugs to you and Will.
I'm so sorry, thinking of you and Will tomorrow and every day
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry to hear this news ... my heart hurts for you both, and my thoughts are with you.
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you both. I'm so sorry. It is so unfair.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Maddy
Oh honey. I'm so so sorry for you. I know the pain. You are in my thoughts...
ReplyDeleteOh Lord. It just can't be.
ReplyDeleteGutted for you both:(
I can't stop thinking about you today. I am so, so, so, so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteOh Mo, oh no I don't even know what to say. I'm so sorry. Hold Will and Macy close; I'm sure you will all need it.
ReplyDeleteOh, my heart is simply broken for you, Mo and Will. You've been on my mind all day, ever since I read this post, and I keep wishing it were all just a bad dream and we could all just wake up. It's so unfair. HUGE hugs to you from Colorado Springs.
ReplyDelete~Heather
This just isn't fair. I am so sorry. You and Will are in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI don't even know what to say, I'm completely heartbroken for the both of you. This is so not fair. :o(
ReplyDeleteMy heart is breaking for you. I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteDelurking from Australia to let you know that you have people around the world thinking of you. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteIt feels like something is wrong in the universe. I am just so mad for you!
ReplyDeleteI read this hours ago and haven't been able to find the words to comment. I don't think there are any. I am so sorry, Mo (and Will). I was so hopeful, and I know you were, too -- a thousand times more. Like many others, I'm crying for you today. Thank you, so much, for sharing your story -- the ups and especially the downs. Please take care of yourself. You're in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI can't find appropriate words, my heart is breaking for you. So I will send you thoughts of strength and love.
ReplyDeleteThat just sucks... really really sucks. I'm so sorry for you both. I've been following your blog, feeling so certain this one was the one. Life is so unfair sometimes.
ReplyDeleteTashia
This is unbelieveable. I can't imagine your shock and utter loss. My heart aches for you; this wasn't supposed to happen.
ReplyDeleteMany warm hugs,
Polly
Damn, damn, damn. I have only been reading here for a little while, but I was so hopeful that this was the one. I am so incredibly sorry! No words can make this better for you. I will keep you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteHere from "Stork Stalking" and so sad to hear this news. Your family is in my prayers and thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI'm so so sorry, Mo. There are no words, as is said over and over, but I'm just so sorry.
ReplyDeleteNo no no no nooooo.... oh Mo and Will my heart is breaking for you. I totally thought this was the one. I am so so sorry.
ReplyDeleteMo, there are no words. I'm just so sorry. You and Will are in my thoughts and prayers....
ReplyDeletenot fair not fair not fair.
ReplyDeleteOh no, I am so very sorry. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteMo & Will
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry
I am so, so sorry. I am holding you guys in my heart. My god this is unfair.
ReplyDeleteI am so incredibly sorry for your loss. This is more than anyones fair share. My thoughts are with you and Will.
ReplyDeleteHolding you both in my heart today...much love to you.
ReplyDeleteLong time lurker... I'm so very, very sorry. There is nothing fair about this. Nothing at all.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. It's not fair.
ReplyDeleteI'm so incredibly heartbroken for you. There are no words, just sending you peace in the difficult days ahead. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteOh damnit...my heart is just totally breaking for you. It just isn't freaking fair. My thoughts and prayers are with you both.
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry to hear this.
ReplyDeleteWords cannot express just how sorry I am. You are both in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteRose
I am so sorry. You are both in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteDevastating. I'm truly sorry.
ReplyDeleteNooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
ReplyDeleteOh, my dear, my heart goes out to you two. No words can express how deeply I feel for you.
Take care of yourself.
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry! It is just so unfair!!!
ReplyDeleteMrs. P
Gosh, that sucks so much. I thought this might be it. I'm sorry. How devastating.
ReplyDeleteMaybe it's time you see the writing on the wall? You've had the best clinic in the country transfer chromosomally normal embryos and given you every hormonal supplement they could to enable your body to support the pregnancy. And it just didn't happen. There are other paths to parenthood, and you have to know that those take time, too-- and time isn't really on your side at this point, right? I just want you to have your happy ending.
Mo and Will. I am so terribly sorry for this wretched news and the pain you are feeling.
ReplyDeleteso so sorry.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. So sorry. I will be thinking about you and Will and sending you thoughts of comfort and peace
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today. Hoping the procedure was as physically painless as possible. You are in my heart.
ReplyDeleteMo and Will,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry and you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Oh Mo, I'm so terribly sorry. My thoughts are with you and Will.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry Mo. I was really hoping that after your u/s on Monday that this would be "it" for you. It completely sucks. ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteNo words. I am just so sorry. You and Will are being lifted up in the thoughts and prayers of many, and I hope you feel that in some small way.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. I recently found your blog and was really praying things would work out this time. Peace and strength to you both.
ReplyDelete{{{Mo}}}, I am so very sorry. I'm in disbelief so I cannot begin to imagine how you & Will are feeling. You both are in my thoughts & prayers.
ReplyDeleteT.
I'm sure it's never easy, but a long-awaited IVF pregnancy loss carries a weight of despair that is so unfair. I am so, so sorry for this, for you both.
ReplyDeleteOh, I am so damned sorry.
ReplyDeleteBless your sweet broken heart, mine breaks all over again with yours.
ReplyDeleteNo, no, no. This is not how this was supposed to go.
ReplyDeleteI'm sending all my love, Mo, to you, the bean, and Will. Let all of our words hold you up just a little in the coming days.
Mo, I'm so sorry. Again. This sucks.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteThere is something cosmically unfair in your case... I am so sorry, I have run out of the right words. But I just don't know what else needs to be set right anymore....Hugs, Mo and Will, and I am sorry for the Baby(-ies) who did not make it.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. I am crying with you right now.
ReplyDeleteHowever and whenever your surviving child(ren) comes to you, the two of you will be wonderful parents. Until that day, I wish you strength and peace.
Will and Mo,
ReplyDeleteI am heartbroken to read this,
I am so sorry for your loss.
Oh no. I'm so very sorry to hear that.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you.
There really aren't words. I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteWhat awful news - not at all what I was expecting to read. I'm so incredibly sorry ... this journey is so fucking unfair and difficult for you.
ReplyDelete:(
I can't tell you how sorry I am for you. My heart sank when I read this.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is breaking for you. So sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteAbiding with you, MO. Big, big hugs.
ReplyDeleteMuch love from yet another internet stranger. Wishing you strength in the coming days and weeks.
ReplyDeleteNancy
I am so very sorry. Hugs are coming your way.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry.
ReplyDelete(here from LFCA)
Oh Mo, I'm so sorry. I wish there was something I could say to take some of your pain away. You'll be in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI am so incredibly sorry for yet another loss. Tragic, just trgic.
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry...I thought this was going to be the beginning of your happy ending.
ReplyDeleteoh my god Mo..... no. I am so profoundly and deeply stunned and sorry.
ReplyDeletewith such love to you and Will,
from such a heavy heart, Kate
Here from LFCA. I am so very sorry for your loss. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteOh God. I am BEYOND sorry for you guys.
ReplyDeleteMo, this is so sad to hear. Another loss seems too much to take, after all you have been through. Love and big hugs to you and Will.
ReplyDeleteI'm a lurker but wanted you to know I shared your happiness and with this news, share your grief. I walked with a heavy heart all day with you both in my thoughts. It's of little solace I am sure. Empty words from a stranger. Still, you're in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteHorrible, tragic....so unfair. You're in my thoughts Mo....I'm so so so sorry....
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry:( Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteso deeply sorry.
ReplyDeleteMore love coming your way from us...
ReplyDeleteI am so shocked and saddened... I'm sorry, Mo and Will. Really, truly, to the core sorry that this has happened to you. Again. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteOh, Mo. :( I'm so sorry. My heart is breaking for you.
ReplyDeletei hope you are safe in your recovery. please be gentle with yourself- this is not your fault.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry. Thinking of you both. I hope when the time comes you are able to find some answers. My heart is breaking for you.
ReplyDeleteSo incredibly unfair. I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteOh, Mo and Will–this is just too unfair. I am so very sorry.
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing I can say that will make this any better for you. I'm sure you heard 300 or more of I'm sorries, but I truely am. How sad...I'm just so sorry you have to go through this again.
ReplyDeleteTake comfort in each other during this time...prayers are with you.
I am so sorry. I know you are both heartbroken.
ReplyDeleteMo & Will, so very sorry, from the very bottom of my heart...Can not even imagine why this has happened.Stunned. Thinking of you and praying for you...
ReplyDeleteoh god, i dont know what to say. I am just so sorry. why does this sh*t keep happening! it's not fair!
ReplyDeleteWorried about you Mo. Praying you are allowing Will and Moxie to hold you tight. You are loved.
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry. I hadn't been on the 'net in a few days and I literally gasped outloud when I read your post.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry Mo.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today and wishing you and Will one moment of peace.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry!
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today and everyday.
ReplyDeletemy heart breaks for you. i am so, so sorry.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. This is so very hard. I will be praying for strength you can't understand ...
ReplyDeleteStill thinking of you Mo and hoping each day is slighly better than the day before. Hugs.xx
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to stop by and let you know that you and Will are in my thoughts...
ReplyDeleteOh goodness. I am visiting via another blogger and was shocked to learn your news. I'm so sorry for the pain you must be feeling right now. I hope that you somehow get wrapped up in a bunch of peace and incredible support.
ReplyDelete(((hugs))) to you
Just wanted to say that I think of you and Will every day and hope that you both are OK. Hugs and prayers to you both.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so, so very sorry Mo & Will.
ReplyDeleteAwww....our hearts go out to you two. Chin up and keep the memory of your baby close to your heart.
ReplyDeleteAlways on my mind, little Mo.
ReplyDeleteI see my girl back on the board over at cycle sista.
ReplyDeleteRight on.
Thinking of you guys always, and hoping you're finding comfort in each other. And wishing there were anything at all that anyone could say to make this even a little easier. I know it doesn't work that way, and I am sorry.
ReplyDeleteWorried about you, Will and Mo. I am thinking about you each and every day. I have been reading for a long time and am just now commenting. I am so sorry and I hope you are leaning on each other right now.
ReplyDeleteShannon
I know that this is a heartbreaking time, and nothing makes the ache go away, but I'm also concerned-- I hope that you're okay. I hope that you're enjoying some time with Will and Moxie and being truly gentle with yourself.
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking a lot about you and Will lately. I hope you're ok. I'm still so shocked and sorry.
ReplyDeleteJust checking in, to say I'm thinking of you guys.
ReplyDeleteThoughts of strength coming your way.
Just checking back in to say that I'm thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteI'm nervous that something went wrong with the procedure... are you okay?
ReplyDeleteHey Mo, thinking of you. Can't really think of anything else to say; 'Hope you are doing ok' sounds really stupid, given the circumstances :-(
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to let you know that someone else out there has been thinking of you guys each and every day since the news. Hope that you are able to find some peace during what I know must be a very difficult holiday season. Take care of yourselves. There are lots of people rooting for you.
ReplyDeleteI'm continuing to hold you and Will in my thoughts and in my heart. Sending you much love, comfort and peace. xx
ReplyDeletethat's just awful, I am sorry.
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to drop in and say I'm thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. I hope you recovered already (more or less, at least physically). I had my 4th m/c on the same day as you. actually it was discovered then. I thought that I'm 17w, but instead i got no heartbeat. I was so sure this time since I passed my 14w mark. No good news for me too.
ReplyDeleteI'll cross my fingers for the next time. Heads up!