...well, sort of...
Will called me. For some reason, the RE called him instead of me. It is 14 days past retrieval and my beta is 48. Per the message the RE left for Will (um, who is the patient here?!), they have been following it this week (I had blood drawn on Monday and Wedsnesday, so they've been following it at least since Weds.), and it has been rising, so we know it's not just/still the HCG booster.
So...I don't know how to feel; 48 sounds low to me, but I'm not sure if it could still be viable. Don't get me wrong - we are grateful for anything at this point. Have been feeling like my uterus snuffs out all forms of life this past year. Even a chemical pregnancy would be a flicker of hope. But maybe...just maybe...I almost don't dare to hope...I don't want to type it for fear of jinxing it...could it maybe a lasting pregnancy?
I have a call in to the RE to find out what the beta has been during this week of secret beta testing. (I only knew they were testing my estrogen and progesterone levels, sneaky IVF people!) I am also, of course, dying to know how fast it has been rising and what my RE's take is on an HCG level of 48 at this stage of the game.
In the meantime...as usual, I turn to you guys. Anybody have a beta this low turn out to be an actual, living child nine or ten months later? Anybody have a beta around this level at all? What happened? It's OK to share both positive and negative outcomes.
Thanks for checking in - some of you multiple times today. It means so, so much to us.
More to come, either later today or tomorrow.
I feel like my heart is going to beat its way out of my chest.