Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Moving ahead: onward and lupronward


I called CCRM and set up the transfer calendar yesterday. No matter what happens with the 7 blasts from the current cycle, we do have the three wonky-but-chromosomally-normal blasts from IVF #6, so we're going to proceed to transfer no matter what and will just transfer the best ones.

I had been debating whether to give myself a month off before moving ahead. Because I'm tired folks. And worn down. And really sick of how long and drawn out this process has been. Dr. Schl. wants me to go on depot lupron for two months due to my endometriosis and the idea of injecting that stuff during the height of a particularly brutal New York summer just isn't getting me excited. But when I talked to the nurse, we calculated that if I start the lupron RIGHT NOW, I will be able to transfer the blasts approximately Oct. 3 (30 days of depot lupron + 30 days of depot lupron + 1 week birth control pills + 6 weeks to build lining back up).

And, um, that already seems like forever from now, and I cannot even imagine dragging things out until November.

So start now it is. Today is Day 3 of my period and the lupron should arrive tomorrow. Poor Will. My mood hasn't really recovered from the IVF cycle and my sky high estrogen yet - heck, the all-over body rash hasn't even had a chance to go away. I fear that adding lupron to the already surly mix of hormones will result in one grumpy hot-flashy Mo. One who will be not so fun to live with.

At least I can say with confidence that we've been through worse (there's always a silver lining if you look hard enough). I'm trying to get my exercise and eating routine back on track, which should help immensely with mood state and energy levels.

Here goes nothing. To say we are nervous about this transfer doesn't even begin to describe it. But damn I'm ready to get this show on the road already.

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26 comments:

sprogblogger said...

I feel your Lupron-pain, but I think it's a great idea to start now, because, yeah, October is a ways away, and you're going to be feeling antsy by then, no matter what.

Hoping so hard for you, my friend, and hoping that your main problem with this cycle is trying to decide which of your perfect embryos to put back now, and which to put back in a few years when you're looking at growing a sibling for Embryo #1.

Here goes lots more than nothing. And call/email if you want to get together. Between my gimpy back and your Lupron craziness we should be good for watching a movie and eating a popsicle, I'm thinking.

Mmmm. Never too early to start eating popsicles...

Hang in there. Thinking of you and wishing all good things for you both.

Life Happens said...

I wish you the best of luck with this cycle. I feel your pain about having this whole TTC journey drag on for so long. We are getting ready to do our transfer on Thursday (this will be our last IVF cycle).

Thinking of you and praying that this will be THE one!

Wanna Bee said...

Lupron is the DEVIL!! But I guess sometimes we have to do the dance to get what we want.
Isn't it amazing how time goes so slow at times and whizzes by at others.
I admire your ability to try and try again. We "quit" last year and are now waiting to adopt.
fingers crossed for you!

Glass Case of Emotion said...

I have been following your story for a while now and I want to say... good luck on your transfer.. as long and drawn out as it may be! :) October is a long time away. But at least it's summer now, and I hope the Lupron doesn't interfere too much. I have found it affects me differently each time I take it.

R. said...

I hope the side effects of the DL aren't too bad. I wish you the best as you gear up for this transfer!

Pie said...

Oh, good luck Mo! DL is no fun, but you'll survive. Stock up on tank tops, freezie-pops, and a good ice maker. And it does take awhile from starting the DL to the actual transfer, and you'll certainly be ready for it by then.

Fingers still crossed for good and speedy news on those blasts!!

Barefoot said...

You are seriously amazing. 60 days of Lupron?? I can't even imagine. Sending lots of calming vibes your way.....

lastchanceivf said...

I hated the two months of depot lupron (I did it in the brutal Texas summer) but I hear good things about it's effects prior to an FET...hopefully all this hard work will pay off in the biggest of ways!

Expectant Duck said...

Your strong Mo! And while Lupron sucks the big one (I've done 3 summers of lupron, my first at the old age of 19) you won't regret it, it will help with the transfer.
Hugs

Expectant Duck said...

Your strong Mo! And while Lupron sucks the big one (I've done 3 summers of lupron, my first at the old age of 19) you won't regret it, it will help with the transfer.
Hugs

Kahla said...

You are amazing, good luck!

Dora said...

Ugh! Lupron Hell and this horrid heat. 6 weeks to build up your lining? That seems like a very long time. For both of my FETs it was about 2 weeks of estrace.

But, yeah, waiting longer is just ... waiting longer. Sucky.

Are you around the weekend after this coming one? Maybe you, Sprog, and me (and Sunshine) could meet up for something tall and cold (maybe chocolatey).

gwinne said...

Wishing you all the best!!

Carrie1074 said...

Wishing you the best! Hang in there!

Christy and Kevin said...

Wishing you all the best and keeping you in my prayers. We did the lupron in 100 degree plus Texas weather and I thought I was going to die. I took a lot of cold showers and went to the pool often. I am praying that this is the ONE for you!! You deserve a baby and I will also keep my fingers crossed.

Christy

Auntie Em said...

Ugh, DL in the brutal heat of summer sounds terrible, but hopefully you will reap the rewards later. : ) I'm glad that you took one step forward with setting up the transfer calendar! I'll be anxious to hear about your DL experiences since I'll be in the same boat this fall.

mrinbetween said...

so a few thought... you have shown you can produce genetically good embryos. That's really huge and you have also shown you can get pregnant, so that's bloody awesome, and you have a really nice number of kids off to the test ranch for a holiday, so I am officially in the highly confident camp that all this will come together for you. I know all those thoughts in your head you have, we have all had them - show me the kiddies - but still, on raw facts, I just thought I'd point out some pretty compelling evidence for a good result out of all of this!

linda said...

I think I'd shoot someone if I had to do lupron for 60 days. I once did it for about 30 or 40 days and it was what lead to my then partner becoming now my former partner.

I'm with you: transfer now, keep your sanity! :-)

Pregnant Yuppy said...

October 3rd will be here before you know it. Trust me.

Danielle said...

Imperfect options, to say the least. But, if you're like me, it's often worse to feel like you're not doing anything to move things along than it is to take the crap that comes with whatever is needed to advance the process.

Sending you warm thoughts and cold drinks.

meinsideout said...

You are truly amazing and I am in awe of your courage. October, November will be here before you know it.

I do not comment as much as I used to but I keep up with you and am still here pulling for you.

Bec said...

You are amazing, I am in awe. Keep going, it will be worth it xx

TeeJay said...

October is a long time away. However, you aren't doing nothing in that time. You are preparing you body for a great transfer. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you. I hope the Lupron doesn't mess with your summer too much. Hang in there, I (we all) think you are doing a great job of holding things together.

Elizabeth said...

So exciting!!!

musicmakermomma said...

Good luck Mo - I started my last round of bcps today for our final FET, hopefully in August. I think my RE is completely w/o hope since he said I might as well do a non-medicated cycle. Huh. I can really relate to the so tired you just want to get it over with thing.

poppy.f.seed said...

wow, this is great news. I will be sending super hopeful positive vibes your way, and reading every update!

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